How I won level 2017 of life (and you can too)

Photo by Myscha Oréo

When 2017 began, I was really excited. I knew something big and fantastic was going to happen, I just knew it.

I turned 34 in January. The last memorably paramount year in my life was my 17th, and I was sure 2x17 was going to be no less. (There was also some kind of omen, turning 2x17 on the 17th day of the 17th year in the new millennium — yeah yeah I know, silly stuff, but it probably helped me set my intention. Faith can make you do anything.)

I started the year with magic — I was in Bali with a beautiful group of people that filled me with love and faith and gave me support that I was unaware I was craving.

But then things took a turn for the weird, strange and unexpected.

2017 turned out to be the year of the greatest depression of my life. At times, I felt sure that ending my life was the best way to go on.

I went to an ashtanga yoga retreat in May, a practice that felt like coming home the very first time I went to a class, and just a few months on, taught me the greatest lesson I think I’ve ever learnt to date.

I learnt how to hold my ground, remain stable and create safety within myself, while allowing myself to flow, bend and relax into the world around me with all the extensions of me. In the process of learning how to balance my ‘bandhas’ (root and core locks), breath and gazing point, I realised that I didn’t have to be in control of my arms and legs or even my head. I could just trust them to do what they needed to, without causing me to lose my balance.

Mind. Blown.

I have been looking for safety in my relationships all my life. I don’t even know if I have ever really loved someone, or just loved their potential to give me what I was looking for desperately and unawares.

But by learning how to find safety within myself, while allow the rest of me to relax into the world, I have died and gone to heaven on earth.

And I’ve been reborn as a whole new me.

My outlook, my approach, my comfort in my own skin, have never ever been so real, tangible and palpable.

When I was 17, I moved away from home to New York for college — and I felt invincible. Nothing could go wrong, or hurt me. At least, that was what I believed fully.

Until life happened and I slowly shrivelled up in fears that I couldn’t have seen coming as a doe-eyed 17-year-old who thought she was wiser than wise.

So I guess I was right after all. At 34, I have been reborn, I have finally opened up all the parts of me that had shrivelled up from fear by becoming really truly aware of everything I feel, and learning to relax into it.

Because no matter what life throws at me, I won’t lose my balance anymore.

Thank you for the love, patience, and support of the amazing friends, family, professionals and strangers who have helped me along the way to get here.

Now, it’s my turn to help you get there if you’re still struggling. Pay it forward.

Are you feeling stuck and just know that 2017 was meant to give you a gift that it hasn’t yet delivered on? Are you ready to get unstuck and feel this amazing flow of energy, balance and roundedness that I’m talking about?

If your answer is yes, then you need to get in touch with me right now so we can get to work straight away. I am committed to you if you are committed to your own rebirth. I have the tools and the experience, and we both have internet. Let’s do this. We will work together intensively to get you there in the 5 weeks before the New Year.

Oh, and you’re all welcome to my rebirth party on December 31st. 2017 is the year I was reborn. What an epic year it’s been after all. It deserves an epic celebration.

Love and light to all!

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Moulsari Jain

Artist, thinker, speaker, coach, creative consultant. Change your perspective, change your world.